Why I Work How I Want And When I want.
I was really mulling over my thoughts today.
“What is my motivation for working online?”
How did I decide that THIS is what I’m going to do?
What clicked in me that made me go from a physical trainer that made over $1500 a week, and a single father at that, to an online entrepreneur?
What was that motivation for working online…it must have been lunacy.
Absolutely.
In reality, I was fed up.
I grew sick and tired of not being able to have a healthy night’s sleep.
I grew weary of the crack of dawn training sessions that, while enjoyable because of my clientele, drained me of what little energy I had to better myself.
I could never train in the sport that I was so passionate about and focused on pursuing because it was always time or money.
Never quite enough of either.
I had to sleep in my car.
I had no choice but to spend more time at the gym than home due to my stretched out schedule.
I was jokingly called a gym rat, and it hurt, because I felt like a slave.
When I could get away and see my son, even for a little bit, even those moments were miserable. I loved my son and adored being around him, but he had already taken his first steps without me. He cried for his MOTHER when he was cranky. And he refused to sleep in my arms. It broke my heart.
Enough was enough.
I let my clients know I only had a few weeks left to train them.
What was bound to happen was going to happen, but I was determined to see my child grow up.
I quit caring.
People told me I was nuts, and I could see how badly they expected me to fail, but that’s the nature of a human being.
I didn’t expect any less from them.
Fortunately for me, I’ve always believed in me when nobody else did, so that didn’t deter me one bit.
As a young, little, chubby kid, I learned that giving into bullies remarks doesn’t help. It just makes you want to eat more pie.
I listened to the few people that told me to, “See what happens,” and to, “Treat it like a business.” One of those friends is a guy that started off selling hosting from his apartment, and turned that into a million dollar a year business. His black card was proof enough.
I definitely had less energy for that first month.
It was difficult.
And yes, I saw my son even less frequently.
After that first day and making a sale, I realized how real this was.
I got past the biggest obstacle in any real online business.
My own mind.
Making money was now a tangible thing. I had something I could spend.
It was real, and I was doing what I was supposed to do.
In the end, it’s two years later and I’m making a couple years worth of salary spending half the energy.
I still work as hard, but because I want to, and because my son loves playing with the, “puda”, as he says.
In the end, what is my motivation for working online?
My motivation for working online is myself, and it should be the same for you.
It wasn’t anything on the outside that caused me to decide that I had had enough.
None of that had changed. That situation was as stale and exhausting as it had always been.
What changed were my self beliefs.
I remembered how many people, authority figures, in my formative years had doubted me, and I would prove them wrong.
I was in charge of my life, and I would fail or succeed on my own terms.
Although, I proved the naysayers incorrect on their terms as well.
Check out a book titled “The New Psycho-Cybernetics.”
You can get the book or the DVD, it doesn’t matter.
I’ve read everything out there, and this book managed to open my eyes even further. Something about the way it’s written maybe? I don’t know, but it’s amazing.
If you don’t get it, take what you will from my example, and always believe in your own abilities, especially when no one else does.
You’re the only thing that you’re certain of anyway.
Until next time, keep the pie off your face.
